I get a little hesitant with getting too caught up in "spiritual highs" when it comes to big groups, big worship and big sermons. So nowadays I tend to not let myself go or get too emotional in worship, and I refrain from over-thinking any conviction in a sermon and thus come out of them with no application to my life. While I am still working through this, I let myself go a little tonight -- I allowed God to show me what He wanted from me.
I could go on about the sermon, so I'll stick with discussing what God taught me during worship. This past week a particular "gray" activity has been weighing on my mind; I continued to justify my doing it, and shut the Holy Spirit out when He was trying to tell me what's what.
One of the songs tonight was "Take All Of Me" by Hillsong. As I sang the line, All of my hope is in You, it hit me -- all my hope should be in God. (There's a little more personal backstory as to why this was a "breakthrough" thought for me; and if you ask, I may share.)
That was when I knew without a doubt that the activity I was participating in was really a sin, because I was making it my source of hope, comfort and security instead of relying on God for those things. I knew I had made it an idol. I am in the process (once again) of repenting of this sin, and I am so thankful that God was with me at theMILL tonight.
A few other things that have been good for my soul this past week:
1. Spending hours in the pool (first time in over a year!) with my family during our Breckenridge vacation.
2. An unexpected 30-minute conversation with my younger brother about morals, personal struggles, the Bible and relationships.
3. Climbing/bouldering/scrambling along some tall waterfalls with my brother and dad.
4. Meeting and hanging out with some UCCS Navs after the MILL tonight; not only was it fun, but it was reassuring to see that making new friends here might not be so hard after all.
the view from the top of the waterfalls
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